23/05/08 - My birth story

This is the day where I have to go for my induce at 11am. Was told by gynae that bb is not gaining weight anymore and has to induce. Hb went with me and we agreed to that. 1st pill was inserted into me and I was put on the CTG to monitor for contractions. However, nothing was seen. Was told to go home and go back to the clinic at 3pm to check for dilation and contraction.

At 3pm, we arrived to the clinic, was told by the nurse that I have onli dilated 1cm!!! and I had to insert another pill. (check for dilation is soooo painful which I will rem always!) While inserting the 2nd pill, the nurse help me stretch my cervic to 1.5cm, hoping this will soften th ecervic and dilation will take place fast.Was told to admit to TMC if I have contractions which is 5mins interval.

All this while, i can onli feel abit of uncomfy and suan suan feeling but I dun like the feeling.

At 9.30pm, I began to sense some crampy feeling at my lower tummy and my lower back was bery suan. I asked hb to time the contractions for me, its 5mins interval! Called my FIL to send me to TMC immediately.

Upon arrival of TMC, I was asked to go to the labur ward waiting area on the 2nd floor while hb went to make the admission. I was told to change into a green labour gown with cris cross string ( like those u wear for OP). Then was put on CTG. Nurse came, shaved me, and put inserted some liquid into me to remove my stools...Boy, this was the time, I know Bb Charlotte is coming...

I was then push into the labour ward...I was put on CTG again, and was told to inform e nurses if i feel like pushing. Hb and I took a nap but i was feeling bery lousy and uncomfortable, lower back so suan until hb has to massage for me. Was told by nurse that my contractions is good, just that i haven dilate much lor..Outside my labour room, I can hear newborn babies cries, everytime I heard the cries, I always asked myself, when will I hear Charlotte's cries...

All this went on until the next morning. I have counted and total I heard 7 newborn bb's cries...then finally the nurses came, check my dilation, was told my dilation onli 1cm!! At this moment, I broke down. Was tinking I suffer for 1 whole day and the dilation onli 1cm. My contractions also slowly slowed down. I was so hungry at this time. Then gynae came in. She check my dilation and was told i onli dilated 1.5cm. If want to put me on drip, I will need to dilate 2cm before she can give the drip to me and insert another pill. I discuss with hb and told him that I dun wan to wait anymore. I want to opt for C-sect. Cos even if on drip and insertion of the 3rd pill, there is no guarrtee that I will dilate after all the hassle again. And I was in pain frm all e dilation and dun want to go through liao lor...

I was crying in front of my gynae and the nurse, this really scares the nurse lor. She thought she hurt me while she was checking the dilation, I told her not her fault lor..Just feel sad that after all the pain and discomfort, still can't dialte. felt so useless cos can't give birth naturally. But lucky hb was there to console me.
Gynae ask me to reconsider but I insisted on c-sect. Hence, an emergency Epi
C-sect was arranged. OT was book, anthesticia was booked, ward was allocated to me etc.

I was allowed to take my breakfast and was ask to take a rest at the normal ward until 5pm, while the OP will take place.

After I was pushed to the 5th floor, normal ward, 2bedded, I have a roommate, she was sleeping while I was pushed in. It is here where hb and I really hv a rest. I was quite skeptical about the c-sect but was trying my best not to be afraid. Instead i was happy and relieved cos finally would be able to see my precious after 5pm..I

At about 4+pm, hb was telling me if anything happens during the OP, and he was asked to choose wither me or bb, he will choose me. After hearing this, my whole body turns soft and touched. Wanted to drop tears but i controlled cos don't want to make him worry about me.

Finally, at 4.30pm, was told to change into the gown, put on the socks and was told to lay down on the bed whereby they going to push me to the OT. Hb took the other lift at the main entrance while I took another one. My fingers were cold cos I was starting to feel frighten. I was finally pushed into the OT, where the anthestia explain the effects of epidural to me. I was told to curl up so that he can administer the epidural into my spine. A nurse was holding onto me.

In less than seconds, my legs were numb, I dun feel anything from my waist and below liao. Here the anthestia was talking to me, making jokes so that i will feel relieve...I was asking for my hb cos all this while he was getting himself ready to come into this OT...Then my gynae came, I was shed away from my breasts and below.

Gynae told me its going to be a fast one and told me not to worry.I felt so cold then, hands start to shiver liao. Then saw hb, was almost in tears when i saw him, i also duno why. In afew mins time, gynae told me my bb is out! She even hold her up to show me. Hb was very excited, told me our bb Charlotte is out already. I can hear her cries loud and clear.Hb was asked to check bb's fingers, toes etc...Then hb turn to tell me, all is intact. Phew...

The next thing I know, I was shivering uncontrollably...fingers cold and shaking, was tol dits the effect of epidural lor...Hb was outside with bb doing the necessary while i was being "stitiched up". Can hear the conversations btw gynae and the nurses but I was slowly sliping into drownsiness..I was bery afraid, trying my very best to be alert cos I scare once I sleep, I won't be able to see my baobei and hb. I told the anthestia I very sleepy and he told me its like that, ask me to take a good rest. Before I closed my eyes, I could see blood stains on the floor, was telling myself, that must be my blood..haha ..Was wondering where's my hubby and baby..

After all the clearning up,I was pushed back into my ward to rest. Then I saw my hubby, at this moment, my eyes were bery heavy though I try to open up lor. Then I rem I aske dmy hubby where is Charlotte and whether she has what she is supposed to have (meaning 10 fingers and 10 toes)..hee...Was relief when hubby said everything is normal and bb looks like me.

Before I knew it, i can hear my mum, sister, yima, inlaws'voice liao..As must as I wanted to open my eyes to see them and see bb, I can't. Felt so dead and scare...Scare I can't wake up...Throughout the nite, nurses came over to check my BP, my wound and whether I have fever...Was onli allowed to drink some fluid at 4+am in e morning...so thirsty..